Disappointed but not surprised

Since the first time I saw you, I fell in love. Maybe was lust, but that's not the point.

I had this idea that in the moment our souls, bodies and lips meet each other, we would seal our love and be happy together.

That didn't happen. And I'm not surprised.

Why would you want to stay with me?

You are in a level I can't reach. Smarter, prettier, sexier, kinder.

I was fool thinking we had a chance.

I don't know why I still try.

It is hopeless? Can I stay with this feeling that I can kiss you again? Should I give up?

I really don't know.